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Fade To Grey…

Sorry for not updating since the end of last year. It’s not like I have nothing to say because I do. My brain feels like it could explode right now. There are so many thoughts wanting to be written down, shouted out, shared with someone, freed from my mind, but I just keep feeling, what is the point.

Another year, a chance for a new start, fresh, exciting. But it isn’t. It’s the same monotonous routine as last month, the month before that and before that. Every single day the same, every week, every month. Nothing changes.

I should be happy. I’ve got a good job, good friends, a roof over my head. I’ve got things to be happy for surely? I just don’t feel it right now.

There’s no light at the end of the tunnel, and when it sometimes feels so close and I can actually see a glimmer of light, a flicker of hope, it just moves further and further away.

There’s got to be something to look forward to in life, otherwise, why keep doing what we do, getting up each day, plugging away with life? What is the point?

I’m so tired right now. Best try and sleep.

Tomorrow is a new day after all…

There are 4 Comments to this article

You checked out my blog says:
02/26/2008

Hi Andrew,
You posted a comment on my blog so I thought I’d check yours out. I understand so well your last post. Are you taking any med? I know that I go through moments when I don’t think I want or need to be medicated. I want to exist without it. After several really tough and scary months I finally got back on medication and got it right. It has done wonders for me lately. I know in the back of my mind it may be temporary, but I do feel better right now and that is what matters. Like you, I myself have never been able to give myself a reason for depression, it is just there, like life has some how disappointed me….

Ian says:
02/26/2008

Hey dude.! Fancy getting blind drunk and pretending to not care.? Saturday night… lift available, John Smiths on tap, bring your toy train sets from the pub and I’ll throw on the nail varnish.!!!

Just take the pants off and we can have some fun yes.?xx

holmz says:
03/04/2008

Dude - I saw you this morning at Aztec roundabout. I was desperately flicking the bird at you, but you were in a world of your own…

So here’s your virtual e-bird flicking. Safe.

What’s this post about? You depressed or something? You know what sorts that out…. beer! You knows it makes sense.

Gale says:
03/04/2008

Evening squire.

Looking good:
http://www.stitchingbastards.co.uk/photos/images/hwangshorts.jpg

Try and cheer up, it’s not all bad. At least YOU AREN’T DEAD!

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